in him is the fullness of all things

You're never giving up on me. Lately I have felt like kind of a roller coaster--spiritually that is. I have been sowing to the flesh, as Paul would say, and as a result I have been reaping from the flesh which is SO much less rewarding than reaping from the spirit. No surprise there. I want to have my cake and eat it too.I want to satisfy my sinful self but I also want to reap spiritual fruits. This is so not how it works. At Real Life last night, I heard a verse that I had heard many times before, but this time it came with fresh meaning. In Proverbs 4:23, Solomon says " Above all else, guard your heart, for it is the wellspring of life ." Everything that I do flows out of the condition of my heart. I know that God wants to change my heart. He wants to do surgery, taking out what is bad and replacing if with what is good. While I want this to happen, it's the "letting go" part that I am having a hard time with. I am having a hard time trusting that what God

Well hello! Guess what? I am not dead. I have just been so stinkin' busy for the past two months that unfortunately blogging has been pushed down the very bottom of my priority list. Oh, I did think about how many of you I was letting down. I was tortured with the thoughts of you weeping and gnashing your teeth over not knowing what was going on in this life of mine. But dry your tears, my friends! I am back*! So what's new with me? What have I been up to? For starters, remember when I went to San Francisco at the beginning of the summer?(it's ok if you don't. I am not offended.) Well, funny story, my family moved there in September! Well, Milpitas, actually. Was I jealous of all the sun or the lack of rain or the fact that Frisco is just a stone's throw away? Obviously not. That was definitely hard to get adjusted to. Then, for the first time, I found myself living on my own. So I lived in the dorms my freshman year of college so I guess I was on my own then. But m