in him is the fullness of all things

You're never giving up on me. Lately I have felt like kind of a roller coaster--spiritually that is. I have been sowing to the flesh, as Paul would say, and as a result I have been reaping from the flesh which is SO much less rewarding than reaping from the spirit. No surprise there. I want to have my cake and eat it too.I want to satisfy my sinful self but I also want to reap spiritual fruits. This is so not how it works. At Real Life last night, I heard a verse that I had heard many times before, but this time it came with fresh meaning. In Proverbs 4:23, Solomon says " Above all else, guard your heart, for it is the wellspring of life ." Everything that I do flows out of the condition of my heart. I know that God wants to change my heart. He wants to do surgery, taking out what is bad and replacing if with what is good. While I want this to happen, it's the "letting go" part that I am having a hard time with. I am having a hard time trusting that what God...

Well hello! Guess what? I am not dead. I have just been so stinkin' busy for the past two months that unfortunately blogging has been pushed down the very bottom of my priority list. Oh, I did think about how many of you I was letting down. I was tortured with the thoughts of you weeping and gnashing your teeth over not knowing what was going on in this life of mine. But dry your tears, my friends! I am back*! So what's new with me? What have I been up to? For starters, remember when I went to San Francisco at the beginning of the summer?(it's ok if you don't. I am not offended.) Well, funny story, my family moved there in September! Well, Milpitas, actually. Was I jealous of all the sun or the lack of rain or the fact that Frisco is just a stone's throw away? Obviously not. That was definitely hard to get adjusted to. Then, for the first time, I found myself living on my own. So I lived in the dorms my freshman year of college so I guess I was on my own then. But m...

... to perfectly put to words the agonizing cry of my heart during this dry, dry summer. O God, I have tasted thy goodness, and it has both satisfied me and made me thirsty for more. I am painfully conscious of my need of further grace. I am ashamed of my lack of desire. O God, the Triune God, I want to want Thee; I long to be filled with longing; I thirst to be made more thirsty still. Show me Thy glory . I pray Thee, that so I may know Thee indeed. Begin in mercy a new work of love within me. Say to my soul, "Rise up, my love, my fair one, and come away." Then give me grace to rise and follow Thee up from this misty lowland where I have wandered for so long. In Jesus' name. Amen. -A.W. Tozer

The orphan clings to Your hand Singing the song of how he was found The widow rejoices For her oppressors are silenced now You sit at the table with the wounded and the poor You laugh and share stories with the thief and the whore When You could just be silent and leave us here to die Still, You sent Your Son for us You are on our side The runaway falls at Your feet You are what he has searched for The rich man is broken When he stands beneath a sky full of stars You sit at the table with the wounded and the poor You laugh and share stories with the thief and the whore When You could just be silent and leave us here to die Still, You sent Your Son for us You are on our side You sit at the table with the wounded and the poor You laugh and share stories with the thief and the whore When You could just be silent and leave us here to die Still, You sent Your Son for us You are on our side Still, You sent Your Son for us You are on our side

pc ( uc davis ) So I've been thinking a lot about the Israelites--how silly they were, how slow they were to learn, how easily they forgot everything, and how similar I am to them. Kind of sobering BUT it is also reassuring to see how God's love for them endured through all their disobedience and stupidity because I know he will be as long-suffering towards me. I've been thinking about one story in particular--you may know it. It's the one where Moses goes up to the mountain to meet with God as well as to get the 10 commandments. What does he find when he comes back down the mountain? The people have fashioned for themselves a golden cow. Now I don't know exactly what must have been going through his mind but the first thing I would have thought would be a cow?! Of all the animals that you could come up with to make an idol of... you came up with the cow? Not a bear, not a lion, not even an elephant? Heaven knows that a cow doesn't strike terror in the heart o...

Music Playlist at MixPod.com I hate all your show and pretense the hypocrisy of your praise the hypocrisy of your festivals I hate all your show Away with your noisy worship Away with your noisy hymns I stop up my ears when your singing ‘em I hate all your show Instead let there be a flood of justice An endless procession of righteous living, living Instead let there be a flood of justice Instead of a show your eyes are closed when you’re praying you sing right along with the band you shine up your shoes for services but there’s blood on your hands you turned your back on the homeless and the ones that don’t fit in your plans quit playing religion games there’s blood on your hands Ah! let’s argue this out if your sins are blood red let’s argue this out you’ll be white as the clouds let’s argue this out quit fooling around give love to the ones who can’t love at all give hope to the on...

Oh you know, just fiddle-fartin' around late one night. Sorry about the crappy audio quality :)